maybe i don't know what i want, and i guess i'm real selfish cos' i made you feel weird as well. ): and i still can't pinpoint the reason i'm so angry. maybe with myself? or maybe my day hadn't been smooth..

the only happy thing that happened to me yesterday was my trip down to Guillemard Gardens School with kailin and cindy. (: the kid i was with (ujo) is sure one mischievious kid. he kept getting distracted and refuses to do his homework. in the end, the seniors had to punish him even though they din't bear to. however, i don't tink he gets the idea of punishment cos' he was smiling all the way. mm, i shall reck my brains and think of a more suitable punishment for him. for some of them, their stories were really sad. Jermaine became mentally challenged after a high fever and it was really a pity. ): i had lotsa thoughts going through my head after the volunteering session with them. also, it was really an eye-opener. i once emailed MINDS and enquire about helping them as i am (i know it sounds mean) a little afraid of them. i wanted to work with them so i can overcome my fears and understand them more. during the session, i was still a little afraid even though i din't admit it, but i'm sure after a few more times interacting with them, things will improve. and i can't wait for the next session (:

work load is getting scary and if i continue procrastinating i won't be able to finish my endless work!! yikes!!

i really wonder what is it that you wanted to tell me. argh, i hate being kept in suspense. ):